Ok, so I just finished watching one of the many morally corrupt, compromised, borderline trashy shows that comes on each week on one of the major networks (ok, it's ABC and the show is "What About Brian?). Before you dawg me too much, show me some mercy.
Well, I seem to be a sucker for these certain characters in different shows. Even in the midst of these shows, there's this appetite that you can see in all of them...this hunger for wholeness, for redemption. In the most spiritual way I can say this...I'm a hopeless romantic for people's hearts to be connected with wholeness.
So back to the show...there's this husband and wife, they've been separated. They have three girls, one of them who is one year old. The one year old has just been "diagnosed" with being deaf. Through this hardship, and some tough decisions toward having an implant placed behind her ear...the couple has been drawing closer to each other.
ENTER my ultra-hyped SAPNESS:
So, the baby girl is crying in the middle of the night, she has a fever. They take her to the hospital and the doctor confirms that the implant is not working and that she cannot hear. All of the hopes that a parent has for their child was just squashed in this mom and dad (yes, I know they are not real...but go with me on this). I watched how they agonized over it, how they so badly wanted to help their daughter out with something that was out of their control.
So, I went into Paige's room. I took her out of her crib and have brought her to bed with me tonight. She's crashin' with daddy. It's unreal the love that a dad has for his little girl. I have nothing else to compare it to when it comes to that kind of relationship. I think it's in parenthood that you really hand yourself over to the sovereignty of God...even more heavy...handing your child over to the sovereignty of God. I don't breathe air into her lungs, and I don't cause her heart to beat...I simply take precious care of God's creation. He sustains His creation for His purposes. That's easily the hardest area of faith for a parent...at least for me.
A lot of SAP in the air tonight...I told you in previous posts, that I'm no good without my wife here...so if you want more testosterone filled posts, you should pray for Christy to hurry home.
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